115 DAYS IN PGN

I officially start back at work (school) tomorrow. Yuck! I've been going to school to get my classroom ready every day for 2 weeks now and I didn't mind a bit, in fact I was pretty much lovin it. But that was because I was doing it on MY time schedule, knowing I could get there at what ever time I felt like and not having the responsibility of 21 active 1st graders. Don't get me wrong, the children are what make my job so meaningful and fun. But I must say, it is quite peaceful to be all by myself, without a room full of children. And it is really nice to be able to sleep late everyday. Anyway, as I suspected, EVERYONE at school has been asking me "Why don't you have your baby home? When is he going to be home? What is the problem?" I'm so grateful that everyone is so excited for me and concerned, but I'm already going a little nuts with all the questions and explanations. What really gets me is when people say, "Oh my gosh, he's going to be walking by the time you get him. That is just terrible that you are missing out on all of this." I just want to crawl under a table and cry when people say things like that. I know I'm missing out on SOOOOOOO much, do you think I need to be reminded every 10 minutes by a different person?!?!? Do you think I haven't run those thoughts through my head a million times a day for the past year now??? Even the lady at Sonic who has taken my breakfast order every day for the past year is telling me that my baby is going to be walking by the time I get him home. I wanted to say "I already know that could happen, thanks for rubbing it in my face lady!" Anyway, please forgive me if I am beginning to sound negative. I just don't have much else to talk about at this point in my adoption journey. I'm really not angry or upset with anyone, I am just sad and want my precious baby home. I'm not trying to say that this is some horrible experience and poor little me. It is the best experience of my entire life and I feel so very grateful that we are financially able to adopt this baby. Over the past 2 years, there hasn't been anything in this world I have wanted more than to adopt a baby for Guatemala. This is really and truly A DREAM COME TRUE!!!